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Blogs > RandomNormalDude > My Blog

Connections  

RandomNormalDude 45M
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10/29/2018 2:29 pm
Connections

How do we connect, or really how do I connect, as I can only speak for myself. I'm what you would call an introvert, I haven't figured out if this is by design or by necessity.

I'm currently 40 and for my adult life and most of my adolescence I suffered from depression and anxiety and was an overall miserable of a bitch. Maxed out at 240 lbs, diabetic and high blood pressure.

I worked, barely which was the extent of my social interaction besides my brother. I did not do people, too much potential for drama and bull shit. I told myself I didn't need any one, I was wrong.

I started to go wacka-do pretty quick, we are a social creature, we need to connect. So I found a work around, music. For me music is very tied to emotion, and for every emotion there is a song that can feed it, or kill it. So I will try and use music to try and explain this.

First : Head
Those<b> songs </font></b>that make us think, take us back in time or another place altogether.

Second : Heart
Sometimes a song will hit you in the feels. Love, baby. Billion<b> songs </font></b>about it.

Third: Hands
I attribute the feeling of being psyched up, excited and anger.

Fourth: Groin
Hmm probably don't need to explain this one, musically, some<b> songs </font></b>are really good to fuck to.

Fifth: Feet
Sometimes you just need to dance, you know those<b> songs </font></b>that you can't help but start moving. I attribute happy to this and fear. Not sure why.

I feel I connect to people in a similar way, and when you find those<b> songs </font></b>and people that hit multiple or all connection points, well, that where the magic happens.

This truly helped me, but still only greatly slowed down the wacka-do. We need to connect.

Another work around, straight up fucking. I would go see an ex-girlfriend every 2-3 years, screw her ever loving brains out for 2-3 days and I was good.

Then it stopped working, after about 5 years of that, something had to give. So I started researching on how to get my diabetes under control and I found a Dr Jason Fung talking about how to reverse Type II diabetes with intermittent fasting. So I tried it.

It worked, I got my blood sugar levels to normal in about two weeks and down to 199 lbs. Then I fell of the wagon, went back up to 211 lbs In March I started a new job so I decided I would start my IF when I started work as I work in a warehouse and moving all day.

I currently weigh 160 lbs, healthy and for the first time in my life, happy. Because over the last year of so of IF my depression has gone away as well as the anxiety and has stayed away. I was not expecting this, I was just aiming on getting my dick working again.

So far in 2018 I done two things I would have told you would never happen, me weighing less then when I graduated high school and being happy.

Then came the question, What else is possible?

I realize this may sound like incomprehensible gibberish from a guy who's probably crazier than a shit house rat.

But I don't care, Have a great day !

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